The reason in the last post may be a little misunderstood. Let me clear things up. Amanda used to always tell me "well, I dont want this to turn into the Karlyn/CJ thing, and I dont want to treat you like she does CJ." I had told her that I'm not like CJ is, if (Read: when) she started treating me like that, I would be gone. Well, that's what happened. It hurts the fuck outta me, but I know I dont deserve to be strung along like some dog, and sorry ladies but I'm not a love slave. Especially to a girl that doesnt understand my feelings one bit.

Anyway, in other news, I found out today that all the comotion next door yesterday from the police was because the woman was murdered. They say it was a suicide, but my mom and I don think so, women dont normally shoot themselves as a means of suicide. It pisses me off though. Just the other day I was out washing my car and talking with her when her dog had run into our yard and I was helping her round him up. She was a nice lady. I was scared yesterday when I heard that something happened over there because all summer I've noticed that every other weekend there are two children, a little boy and a little girl, that play out in their back yard. I was worried maybe something had happened to them. I guess they're not ok if their mother/stepmother is dead... man, and I fucking talked to her the other day too...

Last night was pretty fun. Went over to CJ's after I ate dinner and hung out with him and his mom and sister. They just got back from the beach. I was just talkin with them all while they ate, waiting for CJ to get done so we could go out to Outback and see if Lauren wanted to go do something. (I called you twice woman! Pickup next time!) We went out there only to find that she wasnt working. There was a bit of confusion at first though, the other girls working were thinking she worked at the Battleground Outback. They finally found out I was at the right place, lol. CJ knows one of the girls that works there so we just hung out and talked for a bit, then headed out. Cruised over to UNCG to hang out, since CJ was saying they moved back yesterday. Plenty of hotties... mmm and NYP was loaded with people, it was great. After that we just went driving, trying to get lost. We've been trying to get ourselves lost for 3 years and we can never do it. We take random turns, go down dirt roads, we even ended up in Virginia, and STILL ended up back on either 62 or my street, which cuts all the way through the county. We pretty much know every backroad and driveway in central NC by now. It's useful to know, I suppose lol.

Oh another thing. My sister and I have like... grown really close this summer. She's one of my best friends now. It's fuckin awesome. Now I always have someone to talk to and hang out with lol. It's just gonna suck when I go back to school and have to leave her here.

I guess that's all I feel like talking about now. I'll pick up later.

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